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  Scandal in Fair Haven

  Henry 0 - Number 2

  By

  Carolyn Hart

  1

  I al­ways opt for li­fe.

  Even when it's des­pe­ra­tely hard to do. Even in the midst of de­ath and tra­va­il.

  That's why I wal­ked up the sta­irs from the in­ten­si­ve ca­re unit, whe­re my fri­end Mar­ga­ret was strug­gling to sur­vi­ve, to the se­cond flo­or of the hos­pi­tal.

  I'd first fo­und my way up­s­ta­irs in mid-mor­ning, se­eking res­pi­te from the li­fe-and-de­ath dra­ma that un­folds- ine­xo­rab­ly-in the lo­un­ge that ser­ves the in­ten­si­ve ca­re unit.

  I'd slip­ped qu­i­etly out of the wa­iting area as a we­ary sur­ge­on in blo­od­s­ta­ined scrubs slowly wal­ked to­ward a mid-thir­ti­es man and wo­man. The­ir fa­ces flat­te­ned in gri­ef as he ca­me re­luc­tantly clo­ser. The doc­tor's rub­ber so­les squ­e­aked aga­inst the mar­b­le flo­or. It was the only so­und un­til the mot­her be­gan to mo­an. Cars and yo­uth and al­co­hol.

  I didn't want to see tho­se pa­rents gri­eve. It hurt too much.

  So I slip­ped away, up the an­ti­sep­tic gray sta­irs to the se­cond flo­or and the ma­ter­nity ward, whe­re li­fe was be­gin­ning.

  Yes, the­re co­uld be he­ar­t­b­re­ak he­re too.

  But not this Ap­ril af­ter­no­on.

  One of the ba­bi­es, a lit­tle boy, scrun­c­hed up a red, puc­ke­red fa­ce and be­gan to cry, the ut­terly un­mis­ta­kab­le mew of the new­born. God, how pre­ci­o­us li­fe is. I tho­ught of my fa­mily, of my gran­d­c­hil­d­ren.

  It wasn't the kind of nur­sery I'd ex­pec­ted, of co­ur­se. But the only con­s­tant in li­fe is chan­ge. A brisk nur­se ex­p­la­ined to me what ap­pe­ared to be the de­arth of ba­bi­es. Ba­bi­es to­day don't stay in the nur­sery in bas­si­nets with cards af­fi­xed, Baby Boy Jones, Baby Girl Smith. To­day's ba­bi­es are in the ro­om with the­ir mot­hers, right from the first.

  Sensible, of co­ur­se.

  They spend only bri­ef pe­ri­ods in the nur­sery, for we­ig­hing, for chec­king.

  I wan­de­red down the hall. Many do­ors we­re open. I had ot­her glim­p­ses of new ba­bi­es, new mot­hers, new ad­ven­tu­res be­gin­ning.

  I re­tur­ned to Mar­ga­ret's bed­si­de much ref­res­hed.

  The nur­se mo­ved ne­ar. "She's con­s­ci­o­us now, Mrs. Col­lins. Don't let her talk much."

  Margaret's hand was qu­i­et and co­ol in mi­ne. Her eyes flut­te­red open.

  "You're do­ing fi­ne." I spo­ke qu­i­etly. "I tal­ked to the doc­tor. No ma­j­or da­ma­ge to the he­art mus­c­le. The sur­gery was suc­ces­sful."

  Her bre­at­hing was shal­low, her lips blu­ish.

  "Henrie O…"

  My la­te hus­band Ric­hard ga­ve me, Hen­ri­et­ta O'Dw­yer Col­lins, that nic­k­na­me. Ric­hard used to say I pac­ked mo­re

  surprises in­to a sin­g­le day than O. Henry ever put in a short story.

  "Be qu­i­et now, Mar­ga­ret. Rest."

  She lic­ked her lips.

  I re­ac­hed for the plas­tic cup with ice sha­vings, gently spo­oned a co­ol mo­und on her ton­gue.

  Margaret swal­lo­wed, clo­sed her eyes in thanks.

  The vi­si­ting pe­ri­od was over.

  This ti­me when I wal­ked up­s­ta­irs, it was du­ring the shift chan­ge. A flurry of scrub-clad at­ten­dants, nur­ses, nur­sing as­sis­tants, doc­tors, or­der­li­es, pas­sed me.

  So why did I no­ti­ce the bo­ne-thin wo­man who sto­od in the hal­lway?

  Her fa­ce was hid­den be­hind a cur­ta­in of long, stra­ight ha­ir as she lo­oked down at the in­fant crad­led in her arms.

  A pa­le blue re­ce­iving blan­ket and a tiny hand. That's all I saw wit­hin the pro­tec­ti­ve em­b­ra­ce. Fa­ded gre­en scrubs sag­ged aga­inst the wo­man's bony sho­ul­ders, ex­po­sed her thin wrists. A stet­hos­co­pe dan­g­led aro­und her neck.

  I'd pas­sed do­zens of men and wo­men si­mi­larly at­ti­red sin­ce I bro­ught Mar­ga­ret to the hos­pi­tal la­te last night in the thro­es of a he­art at­tack.

  I wat­c­hed as she-nur­se? nur­se's aide? doc­tor?- pas­sed the nur­sery.

  She pic­ked up spe­ed.

  Her scuf­fed black le­at­her flats slap­ped aga­inst the flo­or.

  Faster. Fas­ter.

  She re­ac­hed the sta­irs, ga­ve a swift lo­ok be­hind.

  And saw me.

  I didn't he­si­ta­te.

  "One mo­ment, ple­ase." I held up my hand. Im­pe­ri­o­usly, if you will. And stro­de qu­ickly to­ward her.

  She sto­od fro­zen, her fa­ce im­pas­si­ve, her arms cur­ved tight as ste­el bands aro­und that small, hel­p­less bun­d­le.

  With every step I to­ok, I be­ca­me mo­re cer­ta­in of my sus­pi­ci­ons.

  I'll ne­ver for­get lo­oking in­to her eyes, dull gre­en eyes flec­ked with am­ber and des­pa­ir. Strag­gling light ha­ir, dar­ker at the ro­ots, fra­med a ga­unt, hol­low-che­eked fa­ce. Her mo­uth was slack, lo­ose, stra­ight lips that had long ago for­got­ten how to smi­le. A pul­se throb­bed in her thro­at.

  I held out my arms.

  Her sho­ul­ders sag­ged. Te­ars ed­ged down her wan che­eks. Slowly, as if the tiny cre­atu­re we­re too he­avy to be bor­ne, she han­ded me the pre­ci­o­us me­wing bun­d­le.

  She whir­led away, yan­ked open the do­or, plun­ged in­to the sta­ir­well. Be­fo­re the he­avy do­or eased shut, I he­ard the clat­ter of her sho­es on the ce­ment sta­irs.

  My ar­ri­val in the nur­sery ca­used a stir, of co­ur­se.

  The alarm went out im­me­di­ately.

  And a sob­bing new mot­her held her baby-tiny six-po­und James Al­len Wil­son-crad­led in the san­c­tu­ary of her arms.

  The he­ad nur­se ca­ught me as I wal­ked to­ward the sta­irs. Her ruddy fa­ce was to­uc­hed with pa­le­ness, her com­man­ding vo­ice wa­ve­red. "They fo­und her in the par­king ga­ra­ge. The po­li­ce are on the way. She'll be char­ged with at­tem­p­ted kid­nap­ping." The nur­se stop­ped, swal­lo­wed, bri­efly clo­sed her eyes, bloc­king out the frig­h­t­ful vi­si­on of what might ha­ve be­en, what al­most was. "God. We're so gra­te­ful. But how did you know? How on earth did you know?"

  I lo­oked down and po­in­ted at the he­ad nur­se's Re­eboks.

  "The scrubs we­re right. She had a stet­hos­co­pe. But ha­ve you ever se­en an­yo­ne who works in a hos­pi­tal we­aring thin-so­led le­at­her flats?"

  "Christ." The nur­se was for­ty-fi­ve, stocky, with an air of

  certitude. She cle­ared her thro­at. "I pro­bably sho­uldn't tell you. We ha­ve a doc­tor who we­ars sti­let­to he­els. Thank God you didn't know."

  I left it at that.

  But it wasn't simply the sho­es, the wrong sho­es. It was the al­most half cen­tury I spent as a re­por­ter. Body lan­gu­age tells so much. Wit­ho­ut ever se­e­ing her, I knew the sti­let­to-he­eled doc­tor exu­ded as­su­ran­ce, com­mand.

  The ri­gid back of the kid­nap­per sho­uted fe­ar.

  And if I'd be­en wrong? So? I don't em­bar­rass easily. And I've le­ar­ned to play my hun­c­hes. For go­od or ill.

  It was a go­od day all aro­und. They mo­ved Mar­ga­ret out of in­ten­si­ve ca­re and in­to her ro­om. I was re­li­eved eno­ugh to pick up my re­gu­lar sche­du­le the next mor­ning, my last class be­fo­re spring bre­ak.

  I still find it hard to see myself as an aca­de­mic. Pro­bably be­ca­use I'm not an aca­de­mic. But it is my ple­asu­re to s
er­ve on a rat­her uni­que jo­ur­na­lism fa­culty, one that em­p­loys re­ti­red pro­fes­si­onals rat­her than deg­ree-la­den and ex­pe­ri­en­ce-po­or aca­de­mics. The pro­fes­sors at this small col­le­ge, nes­t­led in the wo­oded rol­ling hills of so­ut­hern Mis­so­uri, are pe­op­le who ha­ve craf­ted ads, wa­ged cam­pa­igns, wor­ked pub­lic re­la­ti­ons ma­gic in the wa­ke of in­dus­t­ri­al fi­as­cos, and co­ve­red wars and fa­mi­nes and jugu­lar po­li­tics for all kinds of me­dia. Our stu­dents might not ha­ve con­tact with aca­de­mics flo­uris­hing in the sa­ni­ti­zed are­na of juri­ed jo­ur­nals (You kiss my ass, I'll kiss yo­urs), but they are ex­po­sed to how the me­dia world re­al­ly works.

  I car­ri­ed a small box of di­vi­nity when I vi­si­ted Mar­ga­ret in the af­ter­no­on.

  She lo­oked much bet­ter, her co­lor im­p­ro­ved, her eyes cle­ar. Mar­ga­ret has such a ci­vi­li­zed fa­ce. I've se­en its co­un­ter­part on ta­pes­t­ri­es in Brus­sels-an aqu­ili­ne no­se, al­mond-sha­ped eyes, a soft, ro­se­bud mo­uth.

  I wa­ved away her thanks for my vi­gil. I know how much a han­d­c­lasp mat­ters when li­fe hangs in the ba­lan­ce. Not as much as ox­y­gen, but mo­re per­haps than Mar­ga­ret's be­ar­d­less yo­ung doc­tor re­ali­zed.

  She'd he­ard from her night nur­se abo­ut yes­ter­day's ex­ci­te­ment.

  "Henrie O, only you!"

  "You wo­uld ha­ve no­ti­ced in an in­s­tant." It wasn't simply a mo­dest dis­c­la­imer. Mar­ga­ret, al­so on the ge­ne­ral news fa­culty, was a lon­g­ti­me INS cor­res­pon­dent in Pa­ris. Very lit­tle es­ca­pes her.

  "Perhaps. In any event, you've ear­ned yo­ur ho­li­day." Her soft mo­uth lo­oked stub­born.

  We'd plan­ned, be­fo­re il­lness struck, to spend the spring bre­ak at Mar­ga­ret's ca­bin in the Cum­ber­lands. I'd lo­oked for­ward to our trip eagerly, our de­par­tu­re plan­ned for Sa­tur­day mor­ning. I de­arly lo­ve Ten­nes­see and ne­ver pass up an op­por­tu­nity to vi­sit the­re. Mar­ga­ret grew up in Chat­ta­no­oga, and the ca­bin had be­en in her fa­mily for ye­ars. Now the­re was only Mar­ga­ret and a nep­hew who li­ved ne­ar Nas­h­vil­le.

  I sat up stra­ight. "Mar­ga­ret, I didn't think! Yo­ur nep­hew -I sho­uld call him."

  "No, no. No ne­ed. The­re's not­hing Cra­ig can do and I don't want to bot­her him."

  Funny how much you can re­ad in­to words when you are my age. Mar­ga­ret and I ha­ve a he­re-and-now fri­en­d­s­hip. We enj­oy dri­ving in­to St. Lo­u­is for art shows (ever­y­t­hing from Tur­ner to Mo­net to Klee), dis­cus­sing po­li­tics (if you think to­day's press co­ve­ra­ge is sa­va­ge, ta­ke a lo­ok at Char­les A. Da­na's edi­to­ri­al in­vec­ti­ve in the New York Sun in the 1880s), and sha­ring dis­co­ve­ri­es of new bo­oks (Mar­ga­ret li­kes po­etry, I pre­fer non­fic­ti­on).

  We don't spend our li­ves in the past.

  But we know the out­li­nes of each ot­her's li­ves, our hus­bands, whe­re we'd wor­ked and li­ved, what we'd writ­ten. She was a wi­dow too. She and Pa­ul had no chil­d­ren. Her sis­ter Eile­en di­ed se­ve­ral ye­ars ago. Mar­ga­ret's only fa­mily was Eile­en's son, Cra­ig. I'd se­en fa­mily pho­tos scat­te­red abo­ut Mar­ga­ret's ho­use as pho­tos are scat­te­red abo­ut mi­ne.

  And she didn't want me to call her nep­hew abo­ut her he­art at­tack and sur­gery.

  "He's be­en very in­vol­ved with his wi­fe and her fa­mily sin­ce he mar­ri­ed." Her eyes slip­ped away from mi­ne.

  Translation: No ti­me for an el­derly aunt.

  I let it drop. I pul­led out the box of di­vi­nity and a new pa­per­back.

  Margaret smi­led her thanks, then on­ce aga­in lo­oked stub­born. "Now, I don't want any he­ro­ics he­re, Hen­rie O. You go ahe­ad to­mor­row and ta­ke the ho­li­day as we'd plan­ned it. I don't ne­ed to ha­ve my hand held. And se­ve­ral fri­ends from the al­tar gu­ild ha­ve pho­ned. They'll be by."

  I let myself be per­su­aded.

  Margaret was fi­ne, was go­ing to be fi­ne.

  And I was eager for my ho­li­day.

  A pe­ace­ful we­ek in the Cum­ber­lands in a so­li­tary mo­un­ta­in ca­bin.

  What co­uld be mo­re res­t­ful?

  2

  I dro­ve thro­ugh Nas­h­vil­le at dusk. It is a city I lo­ve, ele­gant and so­ut­hern, a city of church spi­res and co­untry mu­sic to­ur bu­ses, glit­te­ring new glass of­fi­ce bu­il­dings and tre­asu­red an­te­bel­lum man­si­ons, bo­ot fac­to­ri­es and in­su­ran­ce em­pi­res, to­we­ring oaks and ghostly gray li­mes­to­ne. I stop­ped for din­ner at Ho­us­ton's, an old fa­vo­ri­te ne­ar the Van­der­bilt cam­pus. The res­ta­urant was jam­med, as al­ways on a Sa­tur­day night. It was al­most ni­ne o'clock when I re­ac­hed my tur­noff from Hig­h­way 24E so­me eighty mi­les so­uth of Nas­h­vil­le.

  I had no tro­ub­le fin­ding the ca­bin-Mar­ga­ret's map was ex­cel­lent-tho­ugh it was se­ve­ral mi­les to the east and far up a rut­ted gra­vel ro­ad. Not a gle­am of mo­on­light pe­net­ra­ted the ca­nopy of tre­es that in­ter­loc­ked abo­ve the twis­ting la­ne. My he­ad­lights stab­bed in­to the dar­k­ness, di­sap­pe­ared in­to the night.

  In the glow of my lights, the ca­bin had a de­ser­ted, ble­ak ap­pe­aran­ce, one wo­oden shut­ter han­ging on a hin­ge,

  pine ne­ed­les thick on the rock path. I pul­led aro­und to the si­de, squ­e­ezed my MG bet­we­en two pi­nes.

  I was ti­red from the full day's dri­ve and the stress of Mar­ga­ret's il­lness and my hos­pi­tal vi­gil. I did ta­ke ti­me to bre­at­he de­eply of the co­ol pi­ne-scen­ted air, to wel­co­me the em­b­ra­ce of co­untry si­len­ce, but wit­hin a few mi­nu­tes I'd un­pac­ked the car-my lug­ga­ge and pro­vi­si­ons for a we­ek- was­hed my fa­ce, ma­de up one of the twin beds, and tum­b­led in­to it and a de­ep, sa­tis­f­ying sle­ep.

  I wa­ke li­ke a cat. Shif­ting in an in­s­tant from de­ep sle­ep to full alert.

  Adrenaline pum­ped thro­ugh me. The no­ise that jol­ted me awa­ke-the me­tal­lic rat­tle of the front do­or­k­nob, the fa­int scre­ech as the do­or swung in-was star­t­ling in the si­len­ce, but per­haps even mo­re shoc­king was the sud­den bla­ze of light from the com­bi­na­ti­on li­ving ro­om-kit­c­hen, il­lu­mi­na­ti­on that spil­led in a harsh swath in­to the bed­ro­om.

  The la­yo­ut of the squ­are ca­bin was sim­p­le.

  The front do­or ope­ned in­to the small li­ving ro­om and kit­c­hen area. The bed­ro­om do­or-which I'd left aj­ar when I went to bed-was to the right of the front do­or. I'd had no re­ason to clo­se the do­or. I was alo­ne in the ca­bin.

  But not now.

  There was no pos­sib­le go­od re­ason why so­me­one was in­si­de the li­ving ro­om of Mar­ga­ret's ca­bin, bet­we­en me and the only exit.

  Except for the sin­g­le bed­ro­om win­dow.

  At bed­ti­me I'd ma­na­ged, with a strug­gle, to ra­ise the win­dow al­most an inch for a bre­ath of fresh co­ol night air. It hadn't be­en easy. The win­dow'd ob­vi­o­usly not be­en bud­ged in ye­ars.

  The in­t­ru­der wo­uld cer­ta­inly he­ar if I tri­ed to get out that way, as­su­ming I co­uld wres­t­le the win­dow any hig­her, which I do­ub­ted.

  That left the front do­or. And my la­te-night vi­si­tor.

  I was al­re­ady mo­ving, easing over the si­de of the bed, grab­bing my key ring with its at­tac­hed Ma­ce ca­nis­ter and my small tra­vel flas­h­light from the nig­h­t­s­tand.

  The Ma­ce ca­nis­ter? Of co­ur­se. Wo­men, old or yo­ung, pretty or ugly, sexy or pla­in, are al­ways at risk. At ho­me. At work. In ho­tels. On the hig­h­way. Day­light or dark. Every wo­man knows it.

  I un­cap­ped the co­ver to the Ma­ce, gently to­uc­hed the trig­ger with my thumb. My hand trem­b
­led.

  The wo­oden flo­or was co­ol be­ne­ath my ba­re fe­et.' Sho­es. I'd run fas­ter with sho­es.

  I fo­ught in­de­ci­si­on and knew it was a form of pa­nic. Tho­ughts, in­com­p­le­te, in­c­ho­ate, whir­led in my mind. Sho­es… do­or… Ma­ce…

  But first I must know who was the­re.

  I re­ac­hed the open bed­ro­om do­or with only one tel­lta­le cre­ak of the bo­ards.

  I've trod a go­od many dan­ge­ro­us paths in my li­fe. I've le­ar­ned to lo­ok hard at fa­ces.

  The old saw in­s­t­ructs that pretty is as pretty do­es. The con­ver­se is equ­al­ly true. The dis­con­ten­ted dro­op of a mo­uth, the ve­nal gle­am in an eye, the ob­se­qu­i­o­us cur­ve of lips, the angry lift of a chin-oh, yes, fa­ces tell ta­les. And dan­ge­ro­us men ha­ve in com­mon an air of rec­k­less aban­don. They are not bo­und by any ru­les, man's or God's, and they will kill you wit­ho­ut qu­alm.